curhatan tentang TA

Waktu menunjukkan pukul 5:48 subuh... dan saya masih tetap terjagaaa...

Sudah beberapa hari terakhir gw manjadi kalong, bangunnya malem terus. Kalo nggak ada aktivitas di sepanjang pagi ke sore, gw tidur lelap sampe siang, bangun langsung gak mandi, leha-leha dulu, makan, buang air, leha-leha lagi atau tidur siang lagi. Lalu ketika menjelang malam, makan, bersenda gurau bersama orang tua demi menjalankan kewajiban menjadi anak baik di keluarga, lalu bila memungkinkan online buat chatting ketawa-ketiwi atau browsing-browsing yang kurang penting, smp malah iseng ngeblog. Telepon pacar untuk curhat kemudian kembali mengerjakan TA lagi sampai pagi menelanjangi malam!

Okay... karena udah terlalu lama under preassure, saya akan membuat pernyataan:

SAYA BERJANJI...
AKAN MENCINTAI TUGAS AKHIR SAYA DENGAN SEPENUH HATI SAMPAI AKHIR HAYATNYA!!!

demikianlah pernyataan saya teman-teman. mari bagi yang juga sedang melakukan apapun dalam keadaan under preassure. mari kita belajar mencintai agar preassure itu hillaaaang! mari mari marii!! seemaangaaatt!!!!

#Rant

You know what’s odd? I relate to bad news better than good news. Not to say I’m used to it, but it seems like I’m more prepared to face sadness than anything else. And I understand things better especially when I don’t want to understand them. Nothing dramatic ever happened to me so far, or should I say rarely, but I do think about the what ifs, so that kinda helps lol. Now what puts me in perspective? Life’s experiences of many, with tiny weeny addition of my own. Well I probably don’t remember much of my past but I sometimes think time slipping away is a bastard. Cold and selfish. Rude and reckless. Well… no reason. It’s self explanatory.

Speaking of which, I loathe self explaining expressions like, “I need you” and stuff because the message is so loud and clear it’s annoying. It makes me feel insufficient, yet important. I just can’t say no to that it’s hard. It’s like my kryptonite. Whattabitch.

Then again, I don’t think it’s selfish when people get personal over jobs/life etc. Not always, really. Unprofessional, some might say. So what? Nothing wrong either. Because, eventually, you do things according to what you want and how you want them to happen and they work out alright. Rules aside, we certainly have personal interests that keep us going; things that make our lives worthwhile. Unless you’re not a person then I think you should be more pissed, why you just can’t get personal at all. Well, it’s a human thing to do. And it’s part of growing up. And to think that we’ve grown up…

And to think that we’ve grown up. Aww, screw that.

*Hey Randomness, your words are preposterous it’s disturbing. I suggest you stop making sense with your profanity now. You have amused me enough :)

I wouldn’t have written this down if I wasn’t myself. I believe when you’re being yourself, there’s no need to feel bad about it. 'Nuff said.

d_P

Why home sounds like a good idea :)

I had a nice dream. Nothing about the life I lived. Nothing about what I wanted to dream about. Nothing about home. I wished I could recall and write about it once I got up but it was so good I wanted to sleep and continue my dream, amidst the silent morning and the cold weather. It's been days when I really saw the sun coming out but I'm not complaining. Year end always feels like this. Always cold and lazy. Nice and cosy. If only I had a mug filled with hot chocolate, life would be enough for me now. It would be perfect. I resolved not to go home this time when the good opportunity came, knocking at my door. Or rather effortlessly. But my mind was weak, early in the morning so I agreed to this weak self. (btw, who can say no to home really?)

My point is, there will be a few times in your life when all your instincts will tell you to do something, something that defies logic, upsets your plans, and may even seem crazy to others. When that happens, you do it. Listen to your instincts and ignore everything else. Ignore logic, ignore the odds, ignore the complications, and just go for it.

Meanwhile, I'm a fickle cow. And I don't mind :)

...on the other hand, I can't trust myself with God given time. Hargh.

Have a great hour/day/weekend/week/month or just all year round. Whatever you choose today, you deserve it :D

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