Happy 22nd Rizky L Nugroho!!!

Happy Birthdaay ayaaang!! 22 kisses for you!!!! mmmuuuaaaaahhh. . . ;)

a song for someone

You're a part time lover and a full time friend

The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

belong to rizky lestari nugroho :)

Apa yg menjadikan wanita keras kepala, dan pria keras kepalan??

take a deep breath,, then think...

Disney's Desperate Housewives

Hehehe. This cracked me up early in the morning!

My lifetime thesis statement...

is that every utopian dream is too good to be true and thus will never be a reality.
it will _more likely_ never happen..

however, a utopian dream will keep the hope alive forever...

why?

because when it's too good to be true_ and never be perfectly fulfilled_
one will keep hoping and thus keep the utopian ideologies alive forever

feminism and socialism are two of these utopian-dream ideologies..

this would be *correction* THIS is my lifetime research,
and I have just started...

Full bf's family day

with my girl friend ;p

see my hair! seems like a witch's hair!! hihihi

boy friend's huge family portrait :)

wait 4 update picture.... :)

of aloneness and togetherness

I always have this constant voice rehearsing in my head whenever something happens. Kinda like telling me to take a mini break or just take a deep breath. Anything that I thought would help me sort things out. Just to clear my head for a while and see things from a different angle. I needed that. Usually in the past, I'd just have a good shower and the worries just seemed to drain away. So it kinda helped.

But now, im not sure if anything works for anything anymore. Neither does it help being on my own nor digress. Not all situations can be dealt alone it seems. I know this is true. Sometimes when you see a friend going through some changes, you do not leave him or her alone. Even if he/she thinks its something “I have to go through myself” thing, and just brings forth that kind of attitude (which can be pain in the neck sometimes I know), but you do not leave him/her alone. Deal with your friend. Be understanding. Show them that u're there even if they think they dont need you. Because you know that deep down they do. Trust me, I know this for a fact :)

Then again, that does not mean you cannot have some time of your own. im sure we all need it at some point. But to face your fears alone aint an easy thing. It can be overwhelming. So go confide in Your Lord. Seek comfort and solitude. Enlighten your faith. Dont give in to fears. Embrace them. Share your musing with a friend. Going through me-time does not mean excluding everyone in your life and giving up everything else. It just means opening up a little part of you, showing your true self to those who really care about you. Eventually, u'll figure out what really matters to you. And I know God is enough for me :)

Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.

Good to be back!

im smiling,, im laughing,, but its all pretending
i made funny joke,, i made quality conversation,, but im still hurting
i know exactly where i am, so why do i feel so lost?

passion life

Di awal-awal masa kuliah, gw pernah diramal.
Peramalnya masih muda, seumuran gw pada saat itu mungkin, dan tampak seperti cewe biasa pada umumnya. Namun entah kenapa, dari sekian seringnya gw di ramal, bahkan oleh yang tampangnya seperti Mama Loren pun, kata-kata cewe inilah yang paling nyangkut di kepala gw.

Yang pertama dia bilang sama gw adalah, bahwa gw susah banget diramal, karena jiwa gw kosong.
Bused. Jiwa gw kosong? Serem amat.
Hati gw juga kosong, katanya. Karena gw lagi jauh sama Tuhan, dan lagi nggak punya tujuan hidup. Gw lagi depresi.
Bener juga sih, waktu itu gw lagi patah hati, dan kuliah di aktuaria membuka pengetahuan gw atas kenyataan-kenyataan hidup yang pahit. Padahal saat itu gw belom siap untuk mengetahui kenyataan-kenyataan itu. Gw masih seru bermain-main dalam lakon komedi dan dongeng-dongeng yang biasanya berakhir dengan happy ending, bukan drama tragedi. Rasanya seperti di film The Matrix, pilih pil merah atau biru? Hehehe...

Satu hal lagi yang gw inget banget dari apa yang dia bilang adalah, bahwa ada sedikit masalah dalam karir gw.
Dia bilang, gw punya banyak bakat. Gw bisa melakukan apa aja dengan baik, dan kebetulan, jalannya selalu ada. Sayangnya, gw malas. Jadi apapun yang gw lakukan jadinya setengah-setengah. Nggak total. Glek.

Si peramal cuma ngasih satu saran. Temuin satu passion lo dan lakukan dengan total, lalu dekatkan diri lo sama Tuhan. Keadaan lo mengkhawatirkan, dia bilang.

Sekarang, setelah gw pikir-pikir, dia bener juga yah.
Apapun yang gw lakukan saat ini, gw merasa nggak gw lakukan dengan maksimal. Padahal, gw tau jalannya selalu ada buat gw, seandainya aja gw bener-bener maksimal atas satu hal.

Tapi apa!! apa passion gw? apa bakat gw??!! -_______-"

Drs. A, ma, flmi

hey Mr A!!! Plisss pliiisss pliiisss, i just need ur TIME for a MOMENT, only for reading my final assignment!! or only to see it!!! the important is u acc it!!! oohh,, come on. 13rd is the day!!!! and i have finished it since almost 2 month ago. and u dont have any attention to it!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrr. *double middle finger

I LOVE SATURDAY!!

i love saturday a lot!!! coz on saturday i dont have to wake early, i dont need to see my rizky busy with his rutinity in the morning. i can snuggle on bed, having joy with him, alooooooooooooooong daaaaaay. yeeaaah. i love saturday morning!! really!! singing lavigne's song very very very loud (haha. sooo 2000 and late!!!) and get mossing on bed with him such an 'alay'. hahahah. oooh, i love this part anyway. :D

Promoting world cup 2010 *sizzling*

Promotion indeed!! Soccer stars Sulley Muntari, Landon Donovan, Kaka, Samuel Eto'o, and Pato posed in Vanity Fair to promote the upcoming World Cup 2010 in South Africa. If they're gonna be playing in only their drawers, i'd totally watch the games :)

babies will born in near time

i was having a short conversation on messenger with my dearest dewi listiyani. she said her baby will born on last june!! hihi cant hardly wait to see. anyway, besides dewi, vina will having a baby on this last june too!! wow,, 2 babies on last june!! yeeaaay!! im gonna be an auntie!!! :D

scootie boy getting sick :'(

scootienya ayaaang

jelek kann??

EMANG JELEK!!!

cepet sembuh yaa scootie sayaaang.

::kiss ::kiss

p.s : this pict taking by mas nono geeenduuuuuutt. :dentadiaryphotoworks: bagus yaaaahh!!!

perfect SUN on lazy DAY

yeeaaah, its sunday afternoon. and sun is going so hot!! yeeaaah, today is soooo HOT beibeeeh. snuggling on the floor, watching glee with my bf and his fam is the best choice for this time. who knows glee will be starts too!! have a lazy day guys!! hope ur glee starts today!! :)

A Sunday wellspent brings a week of content.

I love Sundays.

I especially like them when I wake up early.

And then in bed again after an hour-

... that’s because it’s anything-can-happen-Sunday. :)

Last night, I stayed up as late as one can possibly make a Saturday. As I hit the sheets I declared strength for a successful awakening. One shot of the alarm at 6:27am and I was up and at 'em again. This gave me time to wake my friends up, to catch what felt like a sunrise, and to recreate the world as new again.

So why Sundays?

Well, Sundays are good to rejuvenate your thoughts, to take the time to acknowledge yourself. It’s fun to get in touch with equal parts Mind, Body and Soul. By waking up one hour earlier you can date yourself even before your day begins. For example, you could spend 20 minutes calming the mind in prayers, 20 minutes stretching or running or twisting or jumping, and 20 minutes reading or writing – funneling your thoughts into soulful action. Then reward yourself by doing something you think you deserve. Like making breakfast for everyone. Or catching up with old friends. Or just sleep for the next one hour. Because it’s anything-can-happen-Sunday :)

Being mindful of your own thoughts and actions, whether your being generous or gossipy, will dictate your state of grace, your ability to swiftly experience joy and abundance in your life or not.

Now, Listen Well. Live Surprised. And Stay Fresh.

Sun-daisy-ing,

d_P

curhatan tentang TA

Waktu menunjukkan pukul 5:48 subuh... dan saya masih tetap terjagaaa...

Sudah beberapa hari terakhir gw manjadi kalong, bangunnya malem terus. Kalo nggak ada aktivitas di sepanjang pagi ke sore, gw tidur lelap sampe siang, bangun langsung gak mandi, leha-leha dulu, makan, buang air, leha-leha lagi atau tidur siang lagi. Lalu ketika menjelang malam, makan, bersenda gurau bersama orang tua demi menjalankan kewajiban menjadi anak baik di keluarga, lalu bila memungkinkan online buat chatting ketawa-ketiwi atau browsing-browsing yang kurang penting, smp malah iseng ngeblog. Telepon pacar untuk curhat kemudian kembali mengerjakan TA lagi sampai pagi menelanjangi malam!

Okay... karena udah terlalu lama under preassure, saya akan membuat pernyataan:

SAYA BERJANJI...
AKAN MENCINTAI TUGAS AKHIR SAYA DENGAN SEPENUH HATI SAMPAI AKHIR HAYATNYA!!!

demikianlah pernyataan saya teman-teman. mari bagi yang juga sedang melakukan apapun dalam keadaan under preassure. mari kita belajar mencintai agar preassure itu hillaaaang! mari mari marii!! seemaangaaatt!!!!

#Rant

You know what’s odd? I relate to bad news better than good news. Not to say I’m used to it, but it seems like I’m more prepared to face sadness than anything else. And I understand things better especially when I don’t want to understand them. Nothing dramatic ever happened to me so far, or should I say rarely, but I do think about the what ifs, so that kinda helps lol. Now what puts me in perspective? Life’s experiences of many, with tiny weeny addition of my own. Well I probably don’t remember much of my past but I sometimes think time slipping away is a bastard. Cold and selfish. Rude and reckless. Well… no reason. It’s self explanatory.

Speaking of which, I loathe self explaining expressions like, “I need you” and stuff because the message is so loud and clear it’s annoying. It makes me feel insufficient, yet important. I just can’t say no to that it’s hard. It’s like my kryptonite. Whattabitch.

Then again, I don’t think it’s selfish when people get personal over jobs/life etc. Not always, really. Unprofessional, some might say. So what? Nothing wrong either. Because, eventually, you do things according to what you want and how you want them to happen and they work out alright. Rules aside, we certainly have personal interests that keep us going; things that make our lives worthwhile. Unless you’re not a person then I think you should be more pissed, why you just can’t get personal at all. Well, it’s a human thing to do. And it’s part of growing up. And to think that we’ve grown up…

And to think that we’ve grown up. Aww, screw that.

*Hey Randomness, your words are preposterous it’s disturbing. I suggest you stop making sense with your profanity now. You have amused me enough :)

I wouldn’t have written this down if I wasn’t myself. I believe when you’re being yourself, there’s no need to feel bad about it. 'Nuff said.

d_P

Why home sounds like a good idea :)

I had a nice dream. Nothing about the life I lived. Nothing about what I wanted to dream about. Nothing about home. I wished I could recall and write about it once I got up but it was so good I wanted to sleep and continue my dream, amidst the silent morning and the cold weather. It's been days when I really saw the sun coming out but I'm not complaining. Year end always feels like this. Always cold and lazy. Nice and cosy. If only I had a mug filled with hot chocolate, life would be enough for me now. It would be perfect. I resolved not to go home this time when the good opportunity came, knocking at my door. Or rather effortlessly. But my mind was weak, early in the morning so I agreed to this weak self. (btw, who can say no to home really?)

My point is, there will be a few times in your life when all your instincts will tell you to do something, something that defies logic, upsets your plans, and may even seem crazy to others. When that happens, you do it. Listen to your instincts and ignore everything else. Ignore logic, ignore the odds, ignore the complications, and just go for it.

Meanwhile, I'm a fickle cow. And I don't mind :)

...on the other hand, I can't trust myself with God given time. Hargh.

Have a great hour/day/weekend/week/month or just all year round. Whatever you choose today, you deserve it :D

d_P